Sad

This is just going to be short. My cousin lost his baby this morning. They went to wake him and he wasn't breathing. He is just under a year old. My heart hurts for them. As i look at Violet, I just cant imagine how that feels. These little spirits full of so much joy and love. Sent to us from our Heavenly Father. We are so blessed to be able to raise his children. I know my cousin and family will get thru all this, but it must be so hard. The lord has plans for us we just cant comprehend, and sometimes it makes it so hard to continue to have faith. I start to wonder why would this happen to such a little spirit, and little child. He must have had another purpose. But what about those of us left behind. That is the hard part. i have always had a hard time with death. I know there is life after death, i know we will always be a family, and That we can raise our little ones in the melleniun. But why not now? What is his plan? How do we help those who go thru such a hard thing. What can we do to ease this pain. I wish I could lift it off of them. I wish i could take it away. I hate to see people hurt around me. and feel hopeless. I don't live near this family, and I actually haven't even meet then all in person, but I do know and love them deeply. they are family, and luckily because of the Internet we have become close. So I ask those who take the time to read this please keep this family in your prayers, no matter what faith you are, the lord will be with them. Please help ease their pain. Thank.

a day of pictures

I am finally putting on some new pictures.





Violet was so fun taking pictures. We took so many. This is her first time getting real pictures done. Isnt she just beautiful.







I just didnt get that many of Mabel I liked, but she is very beautiful.






George,good looking as ever.







Iris is so easy to take pictures of. She is such a pretty girl.







Hyrum was super diffacult, so this is what we got.

Last week we were able to spend time in Vancouver, we stayed at my Sis Mary's House. IT was really a great trip. On Valentines day Ben and Cory made us dinner and then we went to see Confessions of a Shopoholic. Such a cute movie. Then on Tuesday we were able to get some pictures of the kids(will post later) It was so fun to do this. My mom has this awesome camra, so we took the pictures our self. It was great. I cant believe how big my kids are. It goes by so fast. When i get the pictures edited I will put them on.

Its Been while

It has been a while. Violet is just getting so big and amazing. She has started to notice things. She will now grab things and bring them to her mouth. She is also laughing and smiling. I just love it. It is so comforting when I nurse her and she holds on to me. It makes me sad to think this is my last one. But I am ready to start a new chapter in my life. I went to the doctor today, I let her know we have decided to get my tubes tied. I feel good about this decision. I want to be incharge of my body, I want to know I wont get pregnant. That if i did it would be my body that messed up. I guess I am controlling.

I also was reading my Sis in Laws post yesterday, She was talking about Changes she wanted to make for her self. She had such wonderful things to do and say. I am going to try her Challenge for myself. I am going to start thinking good of others reather then jumping to other conclusions. Also I am going to listen more, espically to my children. I find myself cutting them off or pushing them away when i am busey. I want to be a better mom then that. My mother never did that. She always listened.

Blessing

On January4 2009, we had the oppertunity to bless Violet. Benjamin was the one who gave the blessing. It was beautiful.
Foster Lauren and Jack came up from Vancouver. Mary and Cory also came up, they stayed with us the night befor. Mom and Dad were also there. It was nice to have company.








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riding the tortoise

In preschool on Wednesday the reptile man came. Mabel was able to ride the tortoise. She was so nervous. She is so funny.

So for new years eve we spent it at our friends house. ben was being sexy and putting on this hat.